Friday, July 22, 2011

a once-a-month blog

Well, it seems I am beginning to write a once-a-month blog.  Thanks for continuing to check in with me and share your thoughts, even if all I really have to contribute lately are updates.

Earlier this week I told Gerard that I am now the happiest that I have been in four and a half years.  And I really am!  With all the shit that I've been through since early 2007... oh my god, I can't believe that I have finally pulled my way out of the darkness... but I am so grateful that I have.

I am working now.  Not enough-- not yet-- but it's on the horizon, and it's a sure thing (i.e., I know I will have exactly as much work as I'd like, if not more, in the next month or so).  I've made it up the curve in part, and there is more rising up to come in terms of my career.  That means that things are eventually going to improve financially.  (Although that part isn't as important to me-- what I really want is to be doing the work that I love, and I am!)  Every time I leave work I am always thinking about how thrilled I am... I am really good at what I do, and I'm being reminded of that now.  It just feels amazing.

Gerard and I are still happy together as well.  We have really figured out a lot of stuff about being together and how to make it work.  I feel really proud of that.  Furthermore, now that I'm out of the house for two or more full days each week, we've started to have sex more often.  Hooray!  I do NOT get tired of feeling that man inside me.  :)

We've also played around with the idea of creating a spanking contract.  Gerard pulled a Spencer Plan thing off of google a couple of weeks ago, made a few edits, and then told me that I had to sign it.  Later it became clear that this was just a clever method of foreplay, but as we talked about it we decided it might be fun to try it out for real.  We're still negotiating the contracts a bit (I made sure I made him one as well, that says all of his responsibilities as a dominant and spanker), but one thing we've already started practicing is Sunday maintenance spankings.  The punishment and behavior-management aspect of this whole contract thing is extremely arousing to me, I must admit.  So that's a fun little thing that we'll get going on, I suppose.

Oh, one other thing that is contributing to my good spirits is that Gerard and I used money from our respective savings accounts to join a gym around the corner from us.  I have never been one for exercise, but I've gained 7 pounds in the last couple of months, and they are not melting away like they once did.  So we've started going over there together.  We swim, we do exercises together, and Gerard takes yoga classes.  I am really loving it, and feeling like my body is getting toned, even though I definitely haven't lost those 7 pounds.  (I know, I know, muscle weighs more than fat.)  It's a great way to use my extra time.  I sort of wish we had decided to do this sooner!

So that's my July update, friends.  Thanks as always for reading.

4 comments:

  1. It is very interesting to see your submission reflected in your life and relationships, including the phase when you thought it was perhaps gone.

    Your relationship with Gerard is so much more wholesome and organic that your previous one was, which was so urgent and manic by comparison.

    It is a joy and pleasure to see you evolve.

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  2. David, thank you so much for your support, as always. That comment made me smile. :)

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  3. O, golden Au-

    While I always love hearing that you're getting spanked, I _really_ love getting sent to Google to look something up, and I _really_really_ love learning something new about S&M history that I'm not aware of. So thanks for the "Spencer Plan" thing. Gee wow.

    Also, I empathize about the posting-once-a-month thing. I don't know if I'm even doing that by now. Your recent tumbls have been inspiring, though.

    Food for thought.....in a recent discussion with Murre, we were discussing how she would handle a third party, and she says (kind of with a gasp) "If I had Aurelia, I would be sooo mean to her..."

    Anyhoo. It's nice to hear from you.

    PS I have a bunch of books you might like, professionally. Interested?

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  4. I also had to Google it, and found this!

    http://gawker.com/5804105/crazy-rich-businessman-enacts-metaphor-for-america

    Had you seen that?

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